Running computers, songs in the background, noisy machines, and the constant tiring hunger. That is a late night that you remember. Not the kind that you forget. The kind you go into with that intention. No, not that kind.
You ask yourself whether you are still mentally aware of your existence, or just a thinking entity whose purpose is to complete the current task.
Okay, time to stop using ambiguous language, although it is quite fun to pursue. What this refers to is a night of measurements needed for a conference paper deadline which is coming up on monday (~30 hours from now). The machines used for experiments and measurements are running and generating noise and heat (maybe even some heat noise, i.e. thermal noise). Additionally, there are the data processing script running. Graphs keep popping up to surprise and amaze, or maybe disappoint. These are experimental measurements after all. The bane of the existence of anyone pursuing practical systems.
I can say more, but the story has already been built in your mind. I can add the obvious ending (this is one of those stories about the journey being more enticing then the ending). A paper is written and either gets accepted or rejected. Nothing really changes either way.
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Monday, September 6, 2010
Ground Control
Ground Control to Major Tom
Ground Control to Major Tom
Commencing countdown, engines on.
What is this feeling of expectation, floating contentious to please another for no personally justified reason. A pull to do what seems natural and possibly good versus a strange form of loyalty through fear of disappointing another. A push-pull oscillations with unexpected harmonics.
It is my fault that this situation is as it is. Yet, I can't but imagine a situation where time is on our hands. Lives get longer but time pressure gets higher. So many need to be the first, to leave everyone else in the dust and distinguish themselves. What happened to apprenticeships? Favoring the long term education and success to the short term potential for hitting it big. University research has proven its self to be the same as corporate R&D. Only difference is that results are slower coming and more incomplete since the monetary and labor resources are lower.
5 second emails
I'm floating in a tin can, high above the world.
Plant Earth is blue and there's nothing I can do.
"There's nothing I can do" started out as "There's nothing I can't do."
This world thinks like an adult while the options which are developing allow children to rule. Innocence, playfulness, and what is decidedly fleeting in the minds of the "motivators," little concept of time. For tomorrow is very much like today in a child's static world. You didn't get to finish your game today? Well, you can just finish it tomorrow or even start a new one. In the world of achievers, this is heresy. This is the thoughts of a loser (definition: someone who doesn't do what they do as early as they do).
How will it matter if one was to finish a book at the age of 25 or 45? "An award or recognition." That sounds like the answer a motivator will give. "You can be an innovator and a leader in your field. Wealthy from business deals and respected by colleagues." "Really," that's what I will say. Being respected by wealthy innovators and motivators, is that really an ideal (a life goal)?
Just as energy must have a reference level, I need one as well. Yet, I can't come to commit myself to the reference given by the motivators, even though I am presently following them.
Maybe Major Tom found a reference floating into space.
Ground Control to Major Tom
Commencing countdown, engines on.
What is this feeling of expectation, floating contentious to please another for no personally justified reason. A pull to do what seems natural and possibly good versus a strange form of loyalty through fear of disappointing another. A push-pull oscillations with unexpected harmonics.
It is my fault that this situation is as it is. Yet, I can't but imagine a situation where time is on our hands. Lives get longer but time pressure gets higher. So many need to be the first, to leave everyone else in the dust and distinguish themselves. What happened to apprenticeships? Favoring the long term education and success to the short term potential for hitting it big. University research has proven its self to be the same as corporate R&D. Only difference is that results are slower coming and more incomplete since the monetary and labor resources are lower.
5 second emails
I'm floating in a tin can, high above the world.
Plant Earth is blue and there's nothing I can do.
"There's nothing I can do" started out as "There's nothing I can't do."
This world thinks like an adult while the options which are developing allow children to rule. Innocence, playfulness, and what is decidedly fleeting in the minds of the "motivators," little concept of time. For tomorrow is very much like today in a child's static world. You didn't get to finish your game today? Well, you can just finish it tomorrow or even start a new one. In the world of achievers, this is heresy. This is the thoughts of a loser (definition: someone who doesn't do what they do as early as they do).
How will it matter if one was to finish a book at the age of 25 or 45? "An award or recognition." That sounds like the answer a motivator will give. "You can be an innovator and a leader in your field. Wealthy from business deals and respected by colleagues." "Really," that's what I will say. Being respected by wealthy innovators and motivators, is that really an ideal (a life goal)?
Just as energy must have a reference level, I need one as well. Yet, I can't come to commit myself to the reference given by the motivators, even though I am presently following them.
Maybe Major Tom found a reference floating into space.
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